There are a lot things we will try if we knew no one was watching us, this is why there is an old saying that- What a man does when he is alone is his true self. Embarrassment is the cost of entry, you will never be a master at anything if you are not willing to be a terrible beginner. Most people only get to play as kids, then it is on to a routinely mechanical life till they die. When I was learning how to ride a bicycle, I had already gotten the bicycle and I approached some group of people to teach me, one said I should keep it a secret that I do not know how to ride a bicycle at this age, then I asked if he knew how to and he said no even though he likes it. So I realized people will rather appear competent than go through the embarrassment of learning what they enjoy.
Great work. There comes a time when you just gotta go "Wetin wan sup make e sup".
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and we have to keep telling ourselves that. that is how we stay young, learning and unlearning.